Why I wrote my Story
I am an ordinary woman with a very familiar story for many people, which is sad to say. Many of us, women and men, have been sexually abused by family, friends of the family, raped, beaten, and had mental and emotional abuse heaped upon us.
Many of us feel that we were to blame for these traumatic events happening to us, that we caused it, that if we were better it would not have happened, or it would stop.
I am here to say that that line of thinking is what our abusers have instilled into our minds, "that is their get out of jail free card."
For me, I refuse to believe that a child, any child 'ASKS' for it, I refuse to believe that what you wear, you ASK for it, I refuse to think that just our mere existence on earth as fellow human beings makes us lesser than another.
Many victims have turned to drugs, alcohol, prostitution, gambling etc., to numb the pain. For me my addiction was horses, as that was what was available to me at the time. I am no better than anyone else who has suffered. What makes me different is I decided that I could not live my life one more minute under my abusers' thumb.
I decided to break the cycle and change my life, which I knew I deserved.
Inside this part of the website, you will find books and a workbook to help you move forward and to help you realize that you, my friend, are NOT alone in this journey you are about to embark on; if you choose.
I am here to say, there is happiness after abuse and trauma, so take the first step and move into the life that you WANT.